丽春院

Paranoia, anxiety , obsessive behaviors, why are people suffering? I mean, why the fuck am I suffering?
Honestly, I don't have a fucking answer. Do you?

There's a shrink smoking weed and a screenwriter that cannot write, a student refuse to go to school, blah blah blah, when you watch a movie you watch yourself, your-fucking-pathetic-self, loser.

I got tired of people. We go outside, we eat, we drink, we get drunk, we have fun, and then sometimes I don't even say goodbye. I'm a fucking cold blooded basterd who would  rather cry over a comedy rather than staying with people. I entice them, get familiar with them, get away from them.

Dungeon and fighters. I don't know you, but I honestly CAN NOT see anything fun about it. A stupid cheap behavior movie parody owns more than millions of players, what the fuck are you doing? Don't you have a life?

I don't have a life. For now my life is staying awake and watching a sucked up movie in the middle of a fucking night! I don't want to watch it. I want to talk, I want to memorize my life. I'm gonna miss it somehow, I know it.

Tomorrow is gonna have a major update, I know I'm gonna spend a lot, yet I can't stop myself.

今天去填奖学金申请表，顺便上毛邓，第一节一下课，全班拎包都走了，陆总阴险地笑：你丫瘦了吧？
我说滚，放屁。他说不好意思说错了，我说你衣服瘦了。

我爸还说，无聊就看英文电影啊~于是我听了贝尔法克门（终结者4的事儿我特么才知道啊）：
Bale:
Kick your fucking ass!
I want you off the fucking set, you prick!
Now don't you speak sorry, think, for one fucking second!
What the fuck are you doing!!（摔/挪动椅子声）
Are you pofessional or not?!

灯光师:
Yes I am..（模糊）

Bale:
Do I fucking walk around and rape the.. no shut the fuck up Bruce（第一副导演）! Do I walk... NO! NO!
Don't shut me up! Am I gonna walk around and rip your fucking lights down? In the middle of the scene?
Then why the fuck are you walking right through!
'Ah-da-la-da-da', like this in the background, what the fuck is it with you!
What don't you fucking understand!
You got any fucking idea about... 'hey! his fucking distracting having somebody walking up behind Bryce（剧中Kate Connor） in the middle of a fucking scene!'
Give me a fucking answer! What don't you get about it!

灯光师:
I was walking at a...（模糊）

Bale:
Oh! GOOD FOR YOU!! And how was it? I hope it's fucking good because it's useless now isn't it?
安静数秒
For fuck's sake man, you amateur!
安静数秒
Look Gene you have fucking something to say to this prick?

女声:
See huh..

Bale:
Well somebody should be fucking watching and keep an eye on him!
This is the second time and he doesn't give it a FUCK about what is going on in front of the camera.

声音:
（模糊）

Bale:
Alright! I'm trying to fucking do a scene and  you are not going.
Why the fuck is Shane（摄影导演） walking in there? What is he doing there? 
Do you understand my mind is not in the scene if you are doing that.（语气缓和）
（安静，其他人的声音未被录入）
Stay off the fucking sad man! For fuck's sake.
Alright let's go again.
Let's not take a fucking minute, let's GO again!
Unless not have YOU fucking walking in!
Can I have a talk with the son please?（本句未听清）

男声:
（模糊）

Bale:
You are unbelievable man. You are un-fucking-believable.（摔）
Number times you are strolling fucking round in the background.（笑点层出不穷……strolling……）
I've never had a DP behave like this.
（安静，声音未被录入，应为灯光师抱怨）
'Uh--you don't fucking understand, what is like working with actors.'
That's what that is. （此处灯光师模糊argue）That's what that is man, I'm telling you!
I'm not asking I'm telling you! You wouldn't have done that otherwise.

灯光师:
what it is, is...（模糊）

Bale:
I'm wanna fucking kick your fucking ass!!!!!!
You don't shut up for a second alright?!
I'm gonna go... you are gonna go fucking trash your lights?
Do you want me to fucking trash your... then why are you trashing my scene?!

灯光师:
I'm not trashing...

Bale:
You are trashing my scene!!
（灯光师继续反驳，贝尔打断）
You do it one more fucking time, and I ain't walking in this stage if you are still hired.
I'm fucking serious.
You are a nice guy, you are a nice guy, but I don't fucking kind it when you are bullshit and fucking around like this set.
（人声劝阻，貌似导演）
Yeah you might get it. He doesn't fucking get it!

导演:
I got it.. I know I know.

Bale:
You might... HE DOES NOT GET IT!
（劝解，模糊）
No I don't need any fucking walking! He needs to stop walking!!
I ain't the one walking!
Get Thomas put this on let's go again.
Seriously man, you and me, we are fucking done, pofessionally.
Fucking ass!
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剧终，谢谢观赏~发现听写有效练打字速度呀

看《全能住宅改造王》，快进掉综艺内容，心烦想哭。变态的民族创造牛逼的文化。

体贴入微，严谨的日本人，用全世界3%人口生产出97%A片的日本人，在中国领土关押中国人的日本人，拍出讨人嫌松子的一生的日本人。

简单说来，要么他们在真诚之下深深埋藏着虚伪和变态，要么……我想不出要么是什么鸟

我很清楚地记得，从那天开始，我的梦越来越清晰，越来越清晰，越来越清晰，越来越清晰。

那天晚上，梦里的旁白说，在一次又一次的洞悉之中，我迷失了自己。
对，原话。就这么文艺。

大三最后一门考试后，很快乐地去喝酒，越喝越沉，不明所以。现在我觉得那是intuition。令我恐慌的不是考试，而是what if 自己的懒惰造成沉重的后果。

“Cheryl爱上了一个尼姑！”当时我们在看老友记，像Joey他们一样相互在门上留言。小胖把这句话贴了好久。
我在梦里爱上了一个女人，一个尼姑；剧情如此清晰，如此有逻辑性，如此真实，历历在目，让我不禁怀疑它确切发生过，在前世。在那场梦的最后，她送我离开，一头长卷发，神情急切，却看不清脸了。几个月后，看看镜子，我猛然发现，或许那个尼姑才是我自己。
说到前世，众生轮回，如何能证，曰高僧入定。有那么一刻，我简直怀疑自己在梦中入定了。

而后，我在梦中爱上了Leo。波折、沮丧、痛苦、纠缠，生离死别。如果这不是爱，我都迷惘了。醒后一身冷汗。how could this be possible? 我希望能不通过镜子、直视自己的眼睛。

梦中的爱和现实的爱差别在哪里？人的情绪这么复杂，比如说，什么是真实（Matrix）？如果是你能感知（相），那么大脑翻译的信号就是真实。梦对人的影响能有多大？李奥纳多说，痛苦帮助我入戏（Inception）。

2010年9月14号夜，无论如何也不能集中精神。或许我没有真正努力去做。撕掉所有的单词后，墙上只剩下两张便签：Don't think you are, know you are、清净随缘自在正觉。
这两句就像“我要努力”一样，都是空话。好像那个故事，一个高僧和一个更高的僧打机锋，一个说，何谓法身，答法身无相；一个说，何谓法眼，答法眼无暇。后来高僧真正悟了，又有人问何谓法身，答法身无相，问何谓法眼，答法眼无暇——说是一回事儿，丝丝入扣又是一回事儿，差别海了去了。

清净
随缘
自在
正觉

I just want to let go, but I really can't. What I need is to stop asking why, cuz the world isn't fair, life isn't fair.

尼采是个如此逗乐的人，他说，我个人最大的成就是一种痊愈，瓦格纳内丫纯粹是一出疾病啊。

what is virtue?  what is idiosyncrasy? what is happiness?

What's more important is, why are you doing this? I mean all these, these THINGS.